CareerAdvice? LifeHasAlreadyMadeReservations.

What's your plan after SPM? What do u wanna be? What are u pursuing? Me? Well, i have a bunch of plans of what-to-do but...honestly, i dont know what the hell am i gonna do after SPM.

Sure, the time off before the results strike terror into every hearts of the form5s.. i'll be working part-time here and there. But the question is- What am i gonna do or study after the results come? I cant wait for the results for show up and then plan....that's just throwing my future into someone else's hand.

I've been thinking about graphic designing, music engineering, culinary studies, business management and tons of other stuffs.. there's like so many things to choose from. And my parents has given me 2 opposite comments about it-

Dad said: I dont care whatever u wanna do, whatever it is..make sure its from the heart. Make sure there's passion.

Mom said: Make sure ur job has a future in it. Make sure there will be a steady pay for u because the world is an expensive place. How will u buy urself a house or car? Think where will u be in 5 years time?

There, both of my parents have given me something to think about when im thinking about getting myself somewhere in this world. Both of them have made their point when it comes to career- it ain't a walk in a park.

The hardest thing is..i dont think i can ace this SPM exam. And i know myself well enough that i'll probably get 4a's max...maximum. And my mum expects me to get straight a's? Now that is something we can call a 'miracle'. Right?

How about u guys? Why dont u guys ask ur parents and see what will they answer.. i think my mum's advice is what u'll get from ur parents.

*sigh* Life is such a bitch. You have to think everything..every single day, week because you wouldn't wanna waste it. And by thinking all that...im sure that stress will start to knock ur heads like a hammer. Now i know why people die from stroke, heart attack, high blood pressure and suicide. It's all because of this stupid life's demand. If you cant keep up, life will chew u up and spit u out..by then eveything is useless.

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DirectionOfEducation.

What's the purpose of education? What's the goal that these people have when it comes to teaching us younger generation? Is it to expand our creativity, turn us into role-citizens or to make us turn into living zombies (or slaves)?

Why living zombies or slaves?
Think about all the exams that we have to cope nowdays, its all about getting an 'A'. That's it. If we dont get those grades- we wont get a good career, we couldn't get scholarships to a higher education platform...in other words, if we dont score- We'll die in society's eyes.

Isn't it true? Every single teacher and parents that came to me whenever im talking about 'education' says that there will be only one question from society; and that's-
"How many A's did u get for your exam?"

If the whole point of education is just to earn high grades, then what happens to the part of 'expanding young mind's creativity?' Are we just attending these institutions in order to get incredible grades? Or do we use the opportunity to get as much of knowledge to make our lives better in any possible way?

That's what i dont understand. Because i have a friend who had his exam earlier this month and before the exam- He was one of the brightest students, he was carrying a book everywhere and he was smart..very smart. But, after the exam he sorta became very slow and stupid in a way...as if the whole exam has drained him. And at the time that i was looking at him- he seemed to like a zombie (cuz he was so slow and kinda stupid compared to how he was before).

So, that made me think about our sense of education- Are the adults turning us into society's zombies and slaves? You people think about it.

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StupidExam.StupidResults.

I hate SPM. Seriously. Why? Well let's just say that it makes me read so much and then i get so tired..i sleep. By the time i wake up, it'll already be around 7 or 8.. i've already wasted my noon.

Futhermore, staying at home is just torture. My com cant reach its internet most of the time..and if i dont spent time reading history or doing english, i'll draw somemore or i'll sleep. I feel so lifeless dammit!

I wonder how will things go after SPM? Will i be staying put at home (like now) or be doing something awesome and stupid..? My plans on making a NRA movie is postponed i think..cuz i dont feel like doing that right away next year. And to think, right now-

I can do the exam right now...as in right at this very moment. But, the thing is...im terrified of the results later. So that's the dilemma that mosts form5s have i guess...

whatever it is:-

I WANT TO BE FREE, I WANT TO GET THIS EXAM DONE WITH, I WANT TO HAVE FUN LIKE HELL, I DOWAN TO WAKE UP EARLY IN THE MORNING ANYMORE. that's it.


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DrawingsOfBoredom.

These are my artworks-

Final days before SPM comes.. and i could still go online. *sigh*
Im trying to push myself harder..and well, its giving me good results. And i spent the whole day yesterday drawing cuz i couldn't concentrate.

Tell me what do u think about the drawings.

SonOfAB*tch, BigTime!

There's this guy in my schoool. He's the so called 'model prefect' for the form3's. And most of the people of school thinks that his 'charming' too in many ways.

How is he 'charming'?
Well, let's just say he is the role model prefect. He scores straight a's, he's in the school's squad for football and he gets away with his flirt-ish attitude towards most occasion.

When it comes to the flirt issue- i don't really mind. I for one, flirt too..but not as much compared to the 'prince charming' here. *sarcasm* And some of the juniors in my school told me that he told them not be involved in a relationship.. concentrate on studies la.. bla..bla..bla.

Now, how come you can tell others not be involved when you yourself is in a relationship? (Well..he used to la..before she liked some other guy.) So, i was like wtf?!

The thing is, i get the point when he wants others to be like him. But don't be a hypocrite. His big crush is now a new prefect.. and i heard that she left him for some guy, according to the rumors- its a teacher. lol.

He was like a good friend when i had my previous relationship breakdown. And a few weeks later, during an event. I told him that i was interested on this 'particular' girl..and he was like "go for it, dude." And i was like alright weyh..*confident look*

But now- that bloody s.o.b. is acting like a bitch to me.. he suddenly wants my girl and he ignores my very existance.

I dont mind the 'ignore my very existance' part..but the thing that pisses me off is- Among all the girls that he could flirt and make his move, why does it have to be my girlfriend? Is he trying to take her from me or is he just trying to piss me off even more?

I would like to say this-
Dude, i dont know what the fcuk is going through your stupid fucking head when your trying to take my girlfriend. And the fact that when i was out with her yesterday and you tried to ask her out on a 'one on one' date? Your just a big son of a b*tch..and all those sweet flirty messages to her phone? Well, we'll see whether you can type after im done with all this. This is a warning..you jack*ss! Its a bloody warning.And dont use the stupid 'pet-brother' excuse...im sick of that shit. Try to get this into that thick skull of yours.

And the readers of this post know who im talking about, please- pass this message to him. Tell him that im aware of his actions. Tell him that i know what he's trying to do. Tell him to just fuck off.

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ItsAMatterOfBadTiming.

Today, i skipped skool..and my plan was to play futsal with my friends. But..it seems that i spent the entire morning playing soccer with Mr.K and the NRA. *sigh*

So, i wasted 20bucks (which i could spent on credit and food) and NRA with Mr.K have wasted their 10bucks as well.. so much for a soccer morning. But its just a matter of bad timing, that's all.

It seemed quite clear that most of us would be either at skool or at home- sleeping. I for one, have to re-plan this thingy either next week's morning or after SPM. (but i wanna work after SPM..) and then there's the PLKN for me.

So we'll see how it goes...and if y'all are reading this and wanna go futsal-ing, lemme know. So that i wont make another last minute plan that have surely showed me its side of reality. And ofcourse, not all last minute plans prove to be successful. Right? :)

CancerToTheSociety.

Everywhere i go, Wherever i turn my head.. people always hate me. Somehow, whenever they began to talk to me then its ok. But then, everyone else who doesnt talk or know me will just hate me at the first sight.

Countless occasions..countless numbers of people who hates me so much by looking at me at the first sight. Mostly, its the people of SMK Bukit Bandaraya. For some reason, im one of the most hated human being in that place..

Who hates me? How can i describe them?
Majority of my 'haters' are the goody-good malays. No offence.

What do i mean when i said the goody-good malays?
Its the ones who are religious, smarter, more civilized than me. Mostly the form2-4s.

Those are the type of people who hates my very existance.. whenever im near them, they'll stare and mouth about me in countless occasions. They just cant stand me living in thier world and sucking their precious oxygen.

Those are the ones i've realised about.. but honestly, i think there's more than just them. Even the teachers hates me. They all hate my very existance too..just as the ones i've just mentioned earlier.

And what's really interesting is: They hate me so much..and sometimes its caused by some stupid reason; for example, like its cause i'm from a royalty blood-line, then its because i speak english and i look so arrogant when i do so, and i'm a freaking loud person..i cant shut up. Those are just a few reasons i could think of..

And i have to constantly change my attitude whenever im socializing with thier type of 'perfect people'. I cant never be ME whenever im around them. But sometimes, i'll just fcuk the whole damn thing and be myself. And then the problem becomes bigger and bigger by the minute.. they hate me so much. They'll do almost anything to keep me out of the picture because i'm a cancer to their eyes.

There. Now, this is what i had to deal with ever since i step my foot into the secondary school life..because back then when im in primary, no one cares about what i do or anything. And all the teacher's dont even know about my attitude nor my background. I was like a shadow. But now im like a cancer to the society.

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SPM.TheSideEffects.

SPM is 32days from now.. and while i was studying today with some friends at Mcd's, i've realized something.

Obviously, the science social stream students wont be feeling the tremendous amount of pressure unlike the pure science stream students.. Why? Its because the pure science stream students are most likely to panic alot more than the others.

My friend who's a science social stream is more likely to study and relax when needed..compared to my other friend who is a pure science and he/she makes us remember the countdown to SPM.

So, from that you can see for your self...smarter people are the ones who will need psychiatrists and all that when they get older and work. Why? Its cause they think about it too much and eventually, it'll get to their head. And they might lose it someday..so dont piss pure scince stream students off. They might bite your head off..

Anyways, to everyone..in advance; good luck to every single form5 who reads my blog.


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LoveIsABitch.

What defines the word 'Love' to you? Is it how a person shows you a certain type of behavior which shows that he/she has interest on you? Is it how a person buys you a box of chocolates and a bouquet of roses and says that they love you?

I honestly think that 'Love' is a tool for someone to use on another person. Whenever that person is easily deceived by this emotion..is so simple for anyone to use the poison called 'Love'..

Love makes your heart starts to pound heavily, your palms starts to sweat.. and everything else to work on its own. It's an emotion that can make a person do things he/she could never do before, it makes them 'stronger' in a way.

All of this is just something you would feel if your been poisoned by 'Love'. I hate being in 'Love'.. i hate the whole thing, i hate being cheated, i hate being used, i hate LOVE.


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L.I.F.E.

Yesterday, i went out with my good friend. We hang'd out and shisha-ing in D'Haven.. When we sat down and started puffing, we began to talk about our problems. He has his problems concerning his relationships with a special group of friends..

And as we talked about all these bullshits surrounding us in life.. i thought to myself, what really bothers me is sometimes when life shows you something perfect..like a girl who's really your type. But then, life shows the ugly side of it.. like she might be in a relationship with another guy or she just like you as a friend. nothing more than that.

And what sucks in this life based on what i've seen so far is for example, the jerks and assholes always get things going their way. Chicks go crazy for them eventhough they are complete bastards.. Their parents will give them whatver they want eventhough they treat their parents like shit.. They can skip school and score straight a's while some of us who works hard everytime doesnt even get close to getting straight a's.

Or if a girl that you had a crush on since you were in form1 share the same feelings for you but by the time you found out, its too late. She moved on. And when you had the chance to tell her how you feel, you backed out.. you thought that she might not feel the same way.

I was thinking about all those things while i was puffing away.. When you think about it, life isn't fair. Nothing is.

You might gain something precious but you'll lose something wonderful in return. Life never fails to show you what you have to sacrifice in order to gain something else.. But when you think about it, Its not life who is unfair..its how you make of with what you've got. Its how you choose to live your life, its how you choose who you want to be friends with.. because in the end, WE ALL ARE JUST HUMAN BEINGS..WE MAKE MISTAKES. But what saparates us is just how we learn from our mistakes.

RaJaNeedsHelp.He'sDoomed.

Holidays are almost over...and the SPM pressure starts to kick-in. Its less than a month till the big final exam, and i feel like im screwed..big time.

The thing is, i know what i wanna do after SPM..and the only problem i have is just this huge boulder on my back. Its called 'Lazyness'.. And each time i reach out for help for this problem, i'll be the one who'll suck out. I'd get left behind.

Dude..im desparate, i need help for SPM. I seriously need a push..i need something or someone to keep on pushing me until its SPM. I need a really determined study-partner..

If there's anyone in SMK BB (form 5) who'd think they could help me out..seriously. Then i need your help, seriously. Im so close to being doomed for the finals.. and if that doesnt show how desparate i am, i dunno what does.

RaJa is calling out for help for his SPM.. he needs help. He needs to study! Help him. Help me!